Your Worth

is going to fill a large part of your life, and the only way to be truly satisfied is to do what you believe is great work.

And the only way to do great work is to

love what you do.

If you haven't found it yet, keep looking, and don't settle.

As with all matters of the heart

you will know when you find it.

~Steve Jobs

Even if the path is a little b l u r r y, Keep Walking.

You'll FOCUS in when you know what you want.

Then the picture of your life will be crystal C L E A R .

Just don't ever give up and don't ever stop w a l k i n g.

Walk Down Memory Lane

I'm teaching two concurrent credit classes with

NNU ( Northwest Nazarene University) which are called

PIE (Professions in Education) and Early Childhood Profession

As part on the classes the students go on INTERNSHIPS

which means they help out preschool, elementary, or middle school teachers with

various task in their classrooms for about 4 hours every B day

Today I did observations.

I attended 24 different classrooms

In 7 different schools within the Nampa School District

Thoughts just flooded my mind as I walked the halls of each school
what else is new :)

Am I cut out for the High School role?

Why didn't I go into El Ed?

Why can't high schoolers be more cute and adorable?

Am I thriving off the "challenge" with teenagers?

Why do I have nightmares about subbing when the times that I have sub its been fine?

Are children more apt to learn at a younger age?

Why?

Why is it that kindergarten kiddos love the fact of going to school?

Why can't teenagers love going to school?

Why is it that the check their phones every 5 seconds?

What makes little kids so irresistible?

Why are my students shocked when I tell them I want to be a high school teacher?

What will I do if I have to teach Middle School?

Will it be more challenging?

Or would I enjoy it more?

Can't I teach little kids life skills?

Who says that making home made bread was for teenagers?

Couldn't 10 year old be just as good at making bread?

(Don't ask me how my yeast bread lab went with my Nutrition and Foods classes)

Which age group gives teachers more respect?

What kind of respect do I expect to receive from my students?

Do we even know what respect is anymore?

Why such a diverse attitude level within every single class?

Would I thrive better in a elementary setting?

Is that more of my niche?

Due to my personality?

Why can't high school be fun?

When I laugh in class it takes some of my students off guard.... why?

( those of you who know me..... can answer that question :)

Are high school teachers suppose to be mean and strict 24/7?

How often do teenagers laugh?

Do I value my education?

3 good things

So I have hesitated blogging because several things have happened within the last couple of weeks...

But today is different

This is a simple blog post....

I'm currently sitting in my room in Nampa Idaho grading my students papers. Thoughts are bouncing everywhere in my mind.

And then I hear it!

The thunderstorm outside my window
My friends music she wrote
Advice from a really good mission friend

I love RAIN!

Every time it rains I feel closer to Heaven. Odd thought I know but that is how I feel.

My friends song is called Better Out There by Kim Buno

"It leaves a choice for you to make.....be grateful that you are given opportunities to do so and that you are sensitive to recognize those situations"

How you know you are a teacher? By Jeff Foxworthy

1. You can hear 25 voices behind you and know exactly which one belongs to the child out of line.
2. You get a secret thrill out of laminating something.
3. You walk into a store and hear the words "It's Ms/Mr. ____" and know you have been spotted.
4. You have 25 people that accidentally call you Mom/Dad at one time or another.
5. You can eat a multi-course meal in under twenty-five minutes.
6. You've trained yourself to go to the bathroom at two distinct times of the day; lunch and prep period.
7. You start saving other people's trash, because most likely, you can use that toilet paper tube or plastic butter tub for something in the classroom.
8. You want to slap the next person who says "Must be nice to work 8 to 4 and have summers off."
9. You believe chocolate is a food group.
10. You can tell if it's a full moon without ever looking outside.
11. You believe that unspeakable evils will befall you if anyone says "Boy, the kids sure are mellow today."
12. You feel the urge to talk to strange children and correct their behavior when you are out in public.
13. You spend more money on school stuff than you do on your own children.
14. You can't pass the school supply aisle without getting at least five items.
15. You ask your friends if the left hand turn he just made was a "good choice or a bad choice."
16. You find true beauty in a can full of perfectly sharpened pencils.
17. You are secretly addicted to hand sanitizer.
18. You understand instantaneously why a child behaves a certain way after meeting his or her parents.

Secondary Teaching

I visited my family during Labor Day Weekend and thoroughly enjoyed myself!

As I was saying my goodbyes, my Grandpa Barnes gave me some needed counsel.
I always look forward to hear what grandpa has to say. Its also a childhood memory I have. I tell people often that my Grandpa Barnes in a man I highly respect and will admire to the ends of the earth! But the thing I am grateful for the most is he NEVER hesitates to Share his lessons of life with us, his grand kids.

My grandpa asked if my experience with student teaching was CHALLENGING. When I answered "it is" He said~ Good it means you are growing.

Ive been thinking about his question and statement.

What if I thought I wasn't ready to grow?

Couldn't there be another "challenge" for me instead of this one?

How does the Lord know I am ready to grow?

What is it that says "HEY, I'M READY TO GROW"?

Do I really NEED to grow?

What is wrong with me right now?

How much more can one person grow?

What am I growing into?

Will I be satisfied with the outcome?

What if I'm growing in the wrong direction?

Is this the growth that I see is needful for me?

Couldn't I just be complacent for a little longer?

I have never blamed the Lord for anything! I have ALWAYS prayed that I would do what He NEEDED me to do. I have committed myself to His will forever. I have held my chin high knowing confidently that I am living my life in a pleasing manner to my Heavenly Father and Elder Brother. I have 100% trust that who I am now, what I am doing now, and why I am the way I am.... is because I allow the Atonement of Jesus Christ to be engraved into my soul.

but

I feel as if I am walking blindly by faith.

I don't have a vision of what my outcome of life is.

There is light at the end of the tunnel but I can barely see it.

why the two sides?

why the opposition in my need to know?

YouTube

As I was growing up... I hated YouTube.

I saw it as a device to spread evil throughout every country, enter into every home and poison the hearts of many vulnerable individuals.
I would tell parents if I saw my little sisters on YouTube

My thoughts are still the same today.

BUT

I find myself on there more than I thought possible. Don't get me wrong.... its still an evil vice but there is good in it as well.

Mormon Messages

Church Music

Worldwide Advertising

Kid History

Clips for TEACHERS!!! ( this is why I am on here a lot!)

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